I wish I was better at making friends.
But I’m terrible at small talk and I usually weird people out with whatever talking topics I can come up with. What even is small talk? Sometimes I can’t even talk to my friends, words don’t make that much sense to me I guess. At least, not when I’m saying them, writing them is alright too. I think that people judge me because of that, they think I’m stupid or just not listening or that I don’t like them. But really, I just wish we could skip the whole getting to know you phase and go straight into the friendship when we’re hanging out and smoking weed and talking about a ton of shit. I usually don’t make it past the first part, but most of the people who I did make it past with are the most amazing people ever. Rant rant rant, I wish I wasn’t so awkward.